For all sad words of tongue and pen, the saddest are these, It might have been.

[cynthia27]

LOVE HURTS BUT DONT LET IT PASS YOU BY

SO IT MIGHT BE THE SAME SHIT ALL GIRLS WRITE ABOUT LOVE AND HATE<<
HOW WE LOVE SOME ONE WITH ALL OUR HEARTS AND HATE THE PEOPLE THAT BRAKES US, MY LIFE IS NO DIFFERENT I WAS IN LOVE WITH SOME ONE I THOUGHT I WAS GOING TO SPEND THE REST OF MY LIFE WITH HIS NAME WAS F. ALEXANDER H. CALLED HIM >>MALO<< FROM **** WE STARTED AS PINPALS WRITING EACHOTHER EVERY OTHER DAY AND TALKED AT LEAST 4 TIME A WEEK IT WENT ON LIKE THAT FOR 2YEARS THEN HE FINALLY GOT OUT WE MET UP OF COURSE WE HOOKED UP, IT WAS GREAT EVEN THOUGH IT LASTED FOR 5 MIN. BUT SECOND TIME WAS A CHARM WELL WITH ALEX THE RELATIONSHIP WAS NICE UNTILL I FOUND OUT HIS *EX* CAME BACK INTO HIS LIFE SO HE CHEATED JUST BROKE ME BUT I DIDNT LEAVE HIM I STAYED BY HIS SIDE AND LET IT HAPPEN (STUPID I NOE) WELL IT GOT TO THE POINT THAT SHE KNEW WHO I WAS AND I KNEW WHO SHE WAS. WE TALKED AND SET ASIDE EVERYTHING WE HAD SAID TO EACHOTHER AND THAT FACT THAT I KICKED HER ASS TOO... WELL HE WAS LIVING WITH ME BUT SPENDING THE NITE AT TIME WITH HER
THE DAYS TURNED INTO YEARS WITH PAIN AND REGRETS I JUST DIDNT KNOW WHAT DO TO I WAS SO IN LOVE WITH HIM THAT I DIDNT WANT TO LET HIM GO TILL I SLAP MY SELF OUT OF IT I FINALLY HAD ENOUGH AND BROKE IT OFF I TOLD HIM I DIDNT WANT ANYTHING TO DO WITH HIM ANYMORE AND THAT HE COULD STAY WITH HER BUT IT WAS TO LATE I TURNED OUT TO BE PREGNANT I WAS NOT SURE IF I WAS HAPPY OR SAD CAUSE HE WOULDNT HAVE BEEN THE DAD EVERY WOMAN WOULD WANT.
I REMEMBER READING HIS LETTERS AND HIM SAYING HE WANTED A KID AND THAT HE WOULD DO ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING TO KEEP HIS PROMISES ON MAKING THINGS BETTER FOR HIM SELF >> THAT HE WOULDNT LIE AND BE THERE 24/7 I WISH IT DID TURN OUT THAT WAY, NOW I LOOK AT MY SON AND THINK OF HIM >>>SINCE HE HAS BEEN GONE AWAY NO ONE CANTAKE THIS PAIN AWAY THERES NO MORE TO LOOSE AND NOMARE TO GAIN BUT TO SEE MY _SON_ SHINE AND GROW, I JUST REMINISEE THE TIMES WE SHARED JUST THE MEMORIES OF YOU AND ME HOW COULD SOME ONE JUST TAKE HIS LIFE FROM ME SO FAST I DIDNT EVEN GET THE CHANCE TO TELL HIM HE WAS GOING TO BE A DAD AND NOW HE IS GONE PLEASE BELIEVE MY HEART IS BROKEN TO SEE MY SON WITH OUT HIS FATHER EVEN THOUGH HE WAS NOT THE BEST BOYFRIEND I KNOW HE WOULD HAVE TRYED MY SON IS GOING TO BE 2 YEARS OLD NOW TALK SO MUCH AND LOOKS JUST LIKE HIM LIGHT SKINNED AND BALD LOL WITH BIG BEAUTIFULL EYES AND BIG LIPS LOL
>>>> IT MIGHT HAVE BEEN... DIFFERENT AND NOT THE SAME IF I DIDNT STICK WITH HIM THROUGH ALL THE BULLSHIT AND DRAMA I WOULDNT HAVE HAD MY SON ** ALEXANDER jr. **

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