Always Yours

Sadeyed_Dreamer · 10-22-2009, 05:39 AM

So here we go with another story. I hope you like this one, I decided to try something new. It's from both sides, let me know what you think.

It was hard to see her like this. All I wanted to do was hold her and tell her what she wanted to hear, but I had to stay strong. I was doing what was best.

“Don’t go please”
“I have too”
“no you don’t. You could just stay here with me”

She grabbed my arm, but I pulled it away from her.

“why are you doing this to me?”
“I have too. It’s for your own good”
“but”
“Janine, let me go. Forget about me”
“never”
“you will, someday”

I turned and walked away. I didn’t look back, I couldn’t. I couldn’t look at her sad face, the tears rolling down her cheeks. I didn’t deserve those tears. I got in my car and drove away. Away from here and my life. Maybe someday I would come back.

Always Yours

I still dream about that day, even now 2 years later. I wonder what she’s doing, if she’s seeing anybody, if she thinks about me. I think about her every day.

“Hey Lorenzo”

I blinked and saw my cousin Lindsay was standing in front of me.

“hey”
“what are you doing?”
“just thinking”
“about going back home?”
“yeah”
“I’m gonna miss you”
“me too”

She was a cute kid. She was 16 and all the boys were chasing after her. My uncle was always trying to scare them off. He was really good at it, until Giuseppe came into her life. He wasn’t going anywhere now. Especially since she’s 6 months pregnant with his kid.

“what time are you going to the doctor’s office?”
“4”
“do you need a ride?”
“no Gio is picking me up”
“oh good”

I tried to smile, but I knew it looked fake. I was finally able to go back home, but I didn’t know what I was returning too. It scared me and excited me all at the same time.

“hey, let’s go inside. I’m hungry”
“you’re always hungry”
“shut up, I’m pregnant”
“that aint my fault”
“I know that”

She laughed and went inside. I eventually got up and followed her. My aunt and uncle were inside cooking dinner. It had been great living here for the past two years, now I had a chance to go back and live the life I used to live.

“mijo, can you set the table?”
“sure Tia”

I went to the cupboard and grabbed everything I needed and I set the table.

“thank you mijo”
“anytime Tia”
“so are you excited?”

Lindsay got her questions from her mom. They always needed to know how everyone was.

“I’m not sure how I feel. I haven’t seen anyone from back home in two years. No one knows why I left.”
“you mean you haven’t seen Janine in two years and you didn’t tell her why you had to leave”
“I couldn’t tell her Tia. It was easier to just break it off with her and leave”
“mijo, you know sometimes what we think is better for others isn’t always the right thing to do”
“what else was I supposed to do Tia?”
“you should have been honest. If she really loved you than she would have understood.”
“maybe”

I put my head down. The thought just upset me.

“you can’t blame yourself mijo”
“it’s just…I feel like I should have tried harder”
“there was nothing you could have done, it was too late”
“I guess”

She kissed my forehead.

“you are going to be eighteen tomorrow. Its time you start thinking about yourself and your future”

I smiled. My Tia had faith in me and knew that I would become the first one in the family to get a college degree. I wanted to become a teacher. I know that sounds weird for a guy to say, but I loved children and I wanted to work with them.

“Hey Lorenzo I’m leaving. Do you want to go with?”
“naw, I’m going to stay here and chill”
“okay, bye”

she gave me a hug and I kissed her cheek and she left. Outside I heard Gio’s car rev and then take off.