Meet Me in Paradise - Page 11

BaBiiCakez · 11-13-2009, 04:40 AM

I can't believe his stupid ass did it again! Just get a real fucken job, ugh!

Goooosh, guys can be so stupid.

keep it coming. wonder what's up with Layloni.

TrAvIeSa_ChUlA · 11-14-2009, 03:27 AM

Chapter Ten: Ruin Me?

I didn’t hear from her the rest of the weekend, I tried going to her apartment again with a teddy bear and some soup but no answer. I was begging to get so worried, but today was Monday and I knew I would see her, I took a deep breath and turned in, I looked at her seat and it was empty now I was really worried. I tried calling no answer, email no answer, going to her apartment no answer. I was going insane, why wasn’t she answering me? Wednesday came and I was still dying to find out if she was okay. I walked into the room and there she was, sitting there. I quickly walked over.

“Are you okay?”
“Yeah.” She said looking down.
“Well what happen?”

She didn’t tell me she stayed quiet throughout the whole class. When the teacher dismissed us she walked away from me, she didn’t wait for me. I chased after her.

“Lay! Lay wait, what’s wrong?”

I don’t know why but my stomach was in pain, it felt like someone just punch my gut and my lungs felt like all the air was being taken out forcefully and it was forming in my throat.

“Miguel what do you want from me huh?” She asked with tears in her eyes.
“What do you mean?”
“All of this why are you being so nice to me?”
“Because Lay.”
“WHY MIGUEL! WHY?”She shouted.
I took a step back shock at her hostility. “Because Lay, your someone I like.”
“You don’t like me, you don’t even know me!”
“But that doesn’t change the feeling I have for you!”
“YOU DON’T EVEN KNOW ME TO BE HAVING FEELINGS!”
“WHY ARE YOU SHOUTING!”
“BECAUSE I’M TIRED OF THIS! YOU CHASING AFTER ME, DOING ALL THIS NICE SHIT! I FUCKING TIRED! I DON’T WANT TO EVER SEE YOU AGAIN!!”

I looked at her if she was crazy, because inside, it was like if she was literally stabbing me in the heart. I felt it tighten up and the lump in my throat got tighter, “No you don’t mean that.” I said.
“I do, the semester almost finishing and we won’t ever have to see each other again.” When she said that, each word cut into my heart deeper and deeper. I could actually feel the tears begging to fall.
“No you can’t do that Layloni, no!”
“Yes. Just leave me alone.”
“NO! YOU CANT DO THAT TO ME! NO! I FORBID YOU TO DO THIS TO ME!”
“Miguel stop it!”
“NO! LAYLONI! NO, YOU CANT JUST HAVE ME FALL IN LOVE WITH YOU AND YOU JUST WALK AWAY NO!”
“YOU DON’T EVEN KNOW ME TO LOVE ME!”
“BUT I DO, YOU’RE THE ONE I WANT TO BE WITH YOU’RE THE ONE THAT TAKES ALL THE-“ I couldn’t finish. The lump in my throat wouldn’t let me.
She stayed quiet for a while, I just looked at her looking for an answering, her teary eyes and expression didn’t give me any answers. It was all confusion.
“you take all the pain away, you make me a better man, I smile every time I’m with you, Lay, I love you.”
“Miguel.” She paused for a second. “I have to go.” She walked away from me. I was left alone in the hallway, my knees wanted to buckle and fall to the floor, but I didn’t. I walked to the doors and looked for her at the bus stop she wasn’t there. I walked, even though my brain was rampaging through all the memories we had, I was still able to walk to the bus stop and wait. Everything around me started to blur and I looked around and I was in my room. I don’t know how I got here, I just knew, all I wanted was to sleep. Sleep till maybe the pain that brew in my chest went away. I felt like my world was collapsing, there was no more her, no more Marco, no more friends. Who did I have left?

Just as if he wsa reading my mind, Chris came in.

“Hey.” He said sitting down on my bed.
“What Chris?”
“Well, its 10:00 at night and you haven’t came out of your room since you’ve came home.”
“And?”
“Well usually you make something to eat, or talk to Marco or Layloni.”
I cringed at her name. “Don’t mention that name ever again okay.”
“She fucked you over?”
“Something like that.”
“You can’t forget who you are Miguel,”
I looked at him, “What do you mean?”
“She doesn’t make you Miguel, you make you Miguel.”
“Your not making any sense.”
“I am your just not listening to me.”
I put my head in my pillow. “Just leave me alone.”
“Nah, not till you understand what I’m telling you, don’t let this girl ruin you, you were doing fine without her and you’ll be okay after she leaves you, now call Marco cause I know you miss that nigga, go buy some alcohol and you can have your depressed night and then you better start living your life again cause I aint having a zombie brother, so get your ass up and go!” He looked at me and smile, “And if you didn’t know, now you know, nigga!”

I rolled over and stared at the ceiling. He was right, I got up and jump in the shower. I needed to clear my mind. And think of a way of how to apologize to Marco. But as hard as I tried, I couldn’t get her out of my mind. I wanted her out of my system, she wasn’t going to ruin me! I wouldn’t let it…but somehow, my heart tingled and I cried. I cried my tears in the shower, and no one seen me. She ruin me, I’m never going to be able to hold her hand or see her smile. I already miss her. I pulled myself together, and got out the shower, I reached for my cell phone and push down on my contacts searching for Marco’s number. Then I passed her name. Another stab in my heart, I decided there and then I’d delete her number, if she wanted nothing to do with me, then I wouldn’t have anything to do with her. I deleted with a slight guilt when I confirm the deletion. I shrugged it off and dial Marco.

“Hello?”
“Whassup.”
He took a minute to answer, “She left you huh?”
I stayed quiet, I tried to fight the tears. I didn’t win and I took a deep breath and exhaled.
“What chu got on it?” Marco asked.
I smiled, “20?”
“Koo, I’ll see you at your crib.” He clicked and I looked at the phone.
Nah she wasn’t going to ruin me, I learn my mistake, I ain’t never falling in love again.