i need some help..well alot of it

[pretty_smile]

i may be too young to even think about love but i think i really love this guy..although were not together anymore i still think about him..ok heres the story..

I WAS GOING OUT WITH THIS GUY NAMED MICHAEL AND HE WASNT JUS ANY RANDOM GUY..ME AND HIM WERE FRIEND SINCE WE WERE IN JR HIGH SKOOL..EXCEPT HES A YEAR BEHIND BC HE FAILED 8TH..WELL ANYWAY..WE STARTED GOING OUT LAST YEAR DURING THE SUMMER..AND THEN IN SEPTEMBER WE BROKE UP AND NOW HE LIVES IN HACIENDA HEIGHTS AND I LIVE IN GARDEN GROVE..AFTER 3 MONTHS WE BROKE UP AND ALL I WANTED TO DO WAS FORGET ABOUT HIM BC IT WAS PAINFUL TO THINK THAT WE WERE NO LONGER WITH EACHOTHER..AND SO FAR APART..BUT YEA HE TRIED TALKING TO ME AGAIN..BUT STUPID ME KEPT PUSHING HIM AWAY..AND I GUES HE SORTA KINDA GAVE UP..AND WEN I REALIZED I WAS ABOUT TO LOSE HIM..I STARTED TO FIGHT BAK AND TALK TO HIM..I PRACTICLY BEGGED HIM TO GIVE ME ANOTHER CHANCE..I TOLD HIM I LOVED HIM AND THAT I NEVER STOPED LOVING HIM AND THAT COULD BE AS HAPPY WITH ANYONE ELSE AS I WAS WITH HIM..BUT HE JUS WANTED TO BE FRIENDS..SO I DECIDED TO GIVE UP AND RECENTLY I STARTED TALKING TO THIS GUY AND MIKE FOUND OUT AND HE TOLD ME THAT HE WANTED TO START TALKING AGAIN..OK..WEN ME AND HIM WERE GOING OUT..WE SERIOUSLY PLANND THE REST OF OUR LIVES TOGETHER AND HOW GREAT THINGS WERE SUPPOSE TO END UP..AND WEN HE CALLED ME HE BROUGHT UP ALL THAT AND HOW HE WISHES THAT WE COULD END UP TOGEHTER AND BE HAPPY..AND HE TOLD ME THAT HE COULDNT STAND OR EVEN THINK ABOUT ME BEING WITH ANYONE ELSE BUT HIM FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE..HE HAD ALSO TOLD ME THIS WEN WE HAD JUS BROKEN UP.. WAT I DONT LYK IS THAT HE SAYS THAT HES GANA FIGHT FOR US AND BUT AFTER HE DOESNT COME THROUGH..AND INSTEAD HE SAYS THAT ITS FINE WITH HIM THAT I MOVE ON AND THAT HES ALWAYS GANA LOVE ME AND IF IM HAPPY THEN HELL LEAVE ME ALONE..BUT EVERYTIME I DO TRY TO LET GO..HE PULLS ME BAK AND TELLS ME THAT HE LOVES ME AND HE DOESNT WANT ME TO GIVE UP ON US..AND IVE TOLD HIM SO MANY TIMES NOT TO TELL ME HES GANA FIGHT IF HES GANA END UP NOT DOING IT ANYWAY..AND THAT HURTS MORE BC HE MAKES ME BELIEVE THAT HE LOVES ME AND IM HIS EVERYTHING..BUT HE NEVER REALLY DOES ANYTHING TO PROVE THAT WAT HE TELLS ME IS TRUE..OK SORRY IF WAT IM SAYING IS REALLY CONFUSING..BUT OK POINT IS THAT HE LOVES ME AND I LOVE HIM BUT HE DOESNT WANT TO BE MORE THAT FRIENDS EVEN THOUGH HE CALLS AND SAYS HE DOES BUT NOT NOW..AND HE WANTS ME TO WAIT FOR HIM..

so i dont knoe if i should wait for him or not..??
i mean i really do care but now that we dont talk as much..im not sure if i should..
i feel lyk hes being selfish bc i think hes only thinking of himself and not about how all this affects me..
im honestly really confused..
and to be completely honest..
i love him but in not sure if im IN love with him as much as i was then..

J.I.C.
me and the other guy are still talking..and i hes a really great guy
but i cant seem to give him a chance bc of mike..so..
wat do you think??

[bu_bomb420]

mijja a lil peice of advice coming frm someone thats been thru tha b4.... move on with your life.... never be stuk on the past... you may be in love with a memory of what used to be but will never be you feel me? why allow for any guy to play with your heart.... a womans heart is the most precious thing in the world... many guys fail to realize that... once he start's not coming thru then what else is he not going to come thru on later on in life? how ever he may still love you.. i'm sure you bolth will always love eachother because you have that kind of connection that can never be broken.... no matter who your with or who he's with it will hurt to see that person with someone else..... byt if i were you i'd move on mijja... if you eva need any advice holla at me homie i got you..... just pm me

[MARIPOSA_EYES]

mijja a lil peice of advice coming frm someone thats been thru tha b4.... move on with your life.... never be stuk on the past... you may be in love with a memory of what used to be but will never be you feel me? why allow for any guy to play with your heart.... a womans heart is the most precious thing in the world... many guys fail to realize that... once he start's not coming thru then what else is he not going to come thru on later on in life? how ever he may still love you.. i'm sure you bolth will always love eachother because you have that kind of connection that can never be broken.... no matter who your with or who he's with it will hurt to see that person with someone else..... byt if i were you i'd move on mijja... if you eva need any advice holla at me homie i got you..... just pm me

yeah i agree, i have been in a situation like that...

he probably does love you pero maybe he isn't in love with you anymore...and you may feel the same way...you might just be hung up on the good times you both had together. if he is telling you to wait for him don't, he might be talking to other girls or dating while he is probably making you waste your time waiting for when he feels ready to fight for you and your relationship...i don't think you should hold back on getting to know your new friend just because he tells you that he couldn't bare to see you with someone else, maybe he's already been out with more then one...like you said your young and you still have the rest of your life to figure out with whom you are stay with...he knows that you will wait, that's why he keeps telling you that he will fight for you two and like you said he hasn't came through with his word, so maybe his feelings towards you aren't as strong and i don't think you should wait for him to make up his mind to be with you, you should say bye to the past and live what is right now. you said that he called you only when he found out that you were talking to someone else that their shows that he wants to ruin any chance of you moving on...

just watch if you were to tell him that you stopped talking to your new guy friend you will see that he will stop calling and trying to get you back and you'll realize that what he told you was just some poor excuse to keep you from having what could be a good relationship...

think about it girl....sorry if i made it a bit long ...but you shouldn't waste your time waiting for some who might not come through with what he says.
if you need any advice...i'm here

[[aniita♥boniita]]

[dazner]

could someone put some damn cliff notes up or summarize that shit?

[☆jAzZi.jAzZ☆]

Lol it's like an essay

[dazner]

ps...the chick ain't even on anymore....why the fuck was this thread brought back up?

[☆jAzZi.jAzZ☆]

I wonder if anyone actually read it lol I seriously just read the title

[dazner]

I just saw the poster that it was someone I knew but it wasn't so it's lame...bleh.

[badazzfelicianotx]

pretty smile, you're never too young to know what love is. if you're feelin' it inside your heart, then yes, you know what love is. it's just you've go through ups and downs to learn all experiences of love.

keep ya head up. even if it doesn't work, no big deal, he was just bump in the road. you will learn in the end all the heart breaks and tears u had to go through was all worth it just to get to your prince.

much luck in ya life